I just want to write down something and I like to call it my personal manifesto. The purpose of this manifesto is to make a clear path to the idea of the purpose of this blog. This idea come to me late last night while I was having trouble falling asleep. This has been a very usual sort of situation with me. Having hours of wild range of different thoughts, making patterns, scenarios, drafts of written communication I need to make. Sentences, phrases, paragraphs. Yesterday, my mind was wandering again as I was thinking about what to write to my cover letter as a wanna-be PhD candidate, struggling to come up with something that does not sound like pulled from the first webpage that you can google when you need to help with these sort of things. I knew I didn't want to sound kitchy and robotic, and I wanted to keep it formal but interesting at the same time. Suddenly I had this moment of a good chain of thoughts, that kind of that almost automatically leads you through words with certain meaning and you think something like 'Oh, this is exactly what I was looking for' and you know that those words you've just been thinking about are the exact words you want to use and you think they are perfect and you would never know up until then that this was the idea you've been waiting for. But, unfortunately, my mind was faster in forgetting than my hand was in putting those line of words into meaningful text into my phone. So I ended up with nothing at the end....
... but, to be honest, I did not ended up with Nothing. The failure of recognizing the moment of interesting and potentially brilliant sort of thinking let me to starting this blog. A blog where I want to retain those kind of thoughts, write them down whenever my mind decide to start the journey to alternative universe of probability scenarios and situations. I want to write them all down. I want to analyze then after a while. I want to know what my stupid crazy head is being occupied with. For this purpose I promised myself to have a notebook with me anywhere I go and to write things down as fast as possible and to make it as authentic as it can be. I hope my personal journey does not end up with dead end. That my mind won't boycott me. Let's hope so...
Sayonara for now...
